A dose of reality…when Mark talked about being asked not to participate in speaking engagements and the feelings and thoughts that he went through really hit home. You see, I have been working through quite the hardship and challenge at work for the past 2 months. The situation is coming to a head, actually as I see it, the pinnacle of the difficulties have reared it’s head this week. My way of keeping it together while I am at work is to keep at positive attitude, so much so that everyone around me is in awe of how I can be eternally positive during such a tough time.
It is all fine, well and good that when I am at work, which has been consuming more of my time lately. When I finally do get home, there is enough time to prepare dinner, turn my computer back on to do more work and then fall asleep. That is where the positivity gets lost. You see, I am up in the middle of the night tossing and turning and spending to much time dwelling on that “stinkin’ thinkin'” as Davene would say. So you can just imagine how that spirals into an unending trial of sleepless nights.
WHY do I tell you all this? Pity? Sympathy? Understanding?
No, again going back to making those changes to the way we think. In the middle of the night this past week, it hit me. I need to be GRATEFUL for everything I am going through. At 2am night after night, it has been difficult to see how I could be grateful for what I/we are going through. BUT….that was just it…..I was the one that was causing these problems, I was the one that kept putting it out into the Universe ….whoa is me…..that is then in turn again what was coming back at me when I needed that in the least.
So, when I wake up in the middle of the night, which still happens, I immediately go through what I am grateful for that day and the situation we have been put in. I continue that thought and mindset as well as telling everyone what I am most thankful for and what I am learning during this period. Again, I am told that they don’t know how I can been so positive, but I look at each person that asks and tell them about how grateful I am. What does that stinkin’ thinkin’ get me otherwise…..endless sleepless nights? Not anymore…I choose my thinking, even in the middle of the night.
What are you thinking about? What are YOU putting out into the Universe, even in the wee hours of the night? Be grateful, see where that will get you.
Today I am grateful for:
- Learning that I am in control of my thoughts and feelings about certain situations not letting the world without controlling it.
- The ability to use my voice, in this case written voice, to get my thoughts and feelings out.
- The support of my team and lifting me up in positivity when they see that my positive bank is low.
What are you grateful for today? Are you willing to post your items for all to see as well? What would our society be like if we WERE all willing to do this each and EVERY day!
Eternally grateful and humbled by this experience.
Keep shining….
Jeanna (oh yeah, Dan says ditto…BAM!!)
